In a shocking account of her harrowing two-year stint at Aberdeen, midfielder Laura Holden has revealed that she was left feeling neglected and unsupported by the club's coaching staff, physiotherapy team, and even its own women's players.
The injury-ravaged 30-minute spell on the pitch six months into her contract may have seemed minor to some, but for Holden, it marked a turning point in an already precarious situation. The physical toll of her ACL rupture was compounded by the mental anguish she endured at the hands of those entrusted with her care.
"I was so naive to the fact that I was struggling," Holden admits, reflecting on the devastating impact of Aberdeen's handling of her injury. "The rehab mentally destroyed me without me even realising it." As she navigated the gruelling rehabilitation process, Holden found herself constantly seeking reassurance from a physio who seemed more focused on ticking boxes than providing genuine support.
Her pleas for help were repeatedly dismissed as Holden struggled to come to terms with being made a "burden" by those in charge. The lack of transparency and accountability at Aberdeen left her feeling isolated, powerless, and desperate for answers.
One particularly harrowing incident – a row with the physio on the training pitch – has been etched into Holden's memory forever. In a moment that exposed the raw emotion she had been struggling to keep hidden, Holden was reduced to tears as she questioned her own value to the team.
"It got to the point where I was so done," she confesses. "I was so ready to just drop it all and quit." The mental strain eventually took its toll on her relationship with Aberdeen, a club that had once been the centre of her universe.
In an astonishing twist, Holden's departure from the club came not due to any perceived shortcomings on her part but rather a combination of factors – including a new coach, Scott Booth, who seemed more interested in finding a suitable loan destination than nurturing his star midfielder.
For Holden, though, it was clear that she had become dispensable. As the days turned into weeks, and the weeks into months, her resolve began to crumble. The prospect of returning to the pitch and facing the same emotional pitfalls once again proved too much to bear.
Today, as she looks back on an experience that will forever define her journey through women's football, Holden is adamant that she does not want what happened to her to happen to anyone else. Her courage in speaking out about the systemic failures at Aberdeen serves as a powerful reminder of the need for greater support and accountability within the sport.
As she embarks on a new chapter in Swindon Town, Holden remains resolute in her commitment to raise awareness about the very real mental health challenges faced by women footballers. Her story is an uncomfortable truth that must be confronted head-on – one that highlights the urgent need for clubs, coaches, and teammates to support those struggling with injury or hardship.
"I don't want what happened to me to happen to anyone else," she says, her voice still laced with emotion. And in speaking out, Holden has given a generation of young players a vital lifeline – one that will hopefully help them navigate the treacherous landscape of professional football with greater ease and compassion than ever before.
The injury-ravaged 30-minute spell on the pitch six months into her contract may have seemed minor to some, but for Holden, it marked a turning point in an already precarious situation. The physical toll of her ACL rupture was compounded by the mental anguish she endured at the hands of those entrusted with her care.
"I was so naive to the fact that I was struggling," Holden admits, reflecting on the devastating impact of Aberdeen's handling of her injury. "The rehab mentally destroyed me without me even realising it." As she navigated the gruelling rehabilitation process, Holden found herself constantly seeking reassurance from a physio who seemed more focused on ticking boxes than providing genuine support.
Her pleas for help were repeatedly dismissed as Holden struggled to come to terms with being made a "burden" by those in charge. The lack of transparency and accountability at Aberdeen left her feeling isolated, powerless, and desperate for answers.
One particularly harrowing incident – a row with the physio on the training pitch – has been etched into Holden's memory forever. In a moment that exposed the raw emotion she had been struggling to keep hidden, Holden was reduced to tears as she questioned her own value to the team.
"It got to the point where I was so done," she confesses. "I was so ready to just drop it all and quit." The mental strain eventually took its toll on her relationship with Aberdeen, a club that had once been the centre of her universe.
In an astonishing twist, Holden's departure from the club came not due to any perceived shortcomings on her part but rather a combination of factors – including a new coach, Scott Booth, who seemed more interested in finding a suitable loan destination than nurturing his star midfielder.
For Holden, though, it was clear that she had become dispensable. As the days turned into weeks, and the weeks into months, her resolve began to crumble. The prospect of returning to the pitch and facing the same emotional pitfalls once again proved too much to bear.
Today, as she looks back on an experience that will forever define her journey through women's football, Holden is adamant that she does not want what happened to her to happen to anyone else. Her courage in speaking out about the systemic failures at Aberdeen serves as a powerful reminder of the need for greater support and accountability within the sport.
As she embarks on a new chapter in Swindon Town, Holden remains resolute in her commitment to raise awareness about the very real mental health challenges faced by women footballers. Her story is an uncomfortable truth that must be confronted head-on – one that highlights the urgent need for clubs, coaches, and teammates to support those struggling with injury or hardship.
"I don't want what happened to me to happen to anyone else," she says, her voice still laced with emotion. And in speaking out, Holden has given a generation of young players a vital lifeline – one that will hopefully help them navigate the treacherous landscape of professional football with greater ease and compassion than ever before.